and the world goes round ...

i/we were fired from our job on monday morning .. i am shocked .. in 51 years, i have never been fired from any job .. i guess i took for granted that at 51, i was working for adults who responsibly worked through whatever problems arose .. heck, i didn't even know there were problems to work through .. not on a serious enough level to fire us .. i know there were issues but thought we were all working through them .. we were never written up .. every review/inspection we ever got, and there had been 2 a month since we came to work for the company in oct of last year, stated we were model employees .. we came in early and stayed late .. we treated the property like it was our own .. we were loved by our tenants .. i could speculate as to why we were fired, but i honestly don't know .. they wouldn't tell us .. the plain truth is that our new area manager did not like us .. and that, my friends, is the only reason they will ever need .. texas is an 'at will' state and they don't have to give you a reason ..
i feel as a child, pushed from the seat of a bus, to land promptly on my butt in the middle of the aisle .. they don't want to play with me anymore .. trying to understand what fault lies with me for my current predicament ..
oddly, i was moving toward walking away from the storage business .. maybe i created this myself by unleashing my creative energies .. maybe it is a natural progression with the advent of mercury in retrograde .. they say you create your world with thoughts .. but why did they feel the need to be so ugly about dismissing me/us .. and why attack rod also, he is super good at what he does .. i feel bad that he got fired also .. they have/had other teams that didn't work out and they kept one of the team .. so i could conclude perhaps they felt threatened by us in some way .. i can conclude, if you are a man, never argue with a frightened woman who sports black eyes and bruises like they were fashion accessories .. or i could conclude, they just didn't like us, plain and simple .. that is a tough one for me .. i like being liked ..
one thing that sticks in my mind .. during the firing process .. 'she devil' said 'how dare ya'll', when i informed her we would not be out of our apartment/home in the 4 days they were demanding .. i honestly don't know what i said in response, it was tempered, rod assured me, but i remember my lips moving and my face felt flush .. and i remember 'she devil' sticking her fingers in her ears .. yeah, like a third grade child refusing to listen .. that is when i had my 'rosie' moment .. the light bulb went off over my head and i knew instantly it wasn't about me .. there is a lesson here, and it is not mine .. God was using me to shine a light ..
and then i remembered, warrenton is around the corner .. don't know where we are going ..or what we will be doing .. but we are free .. free at last .. lol! love you guyz!

thoughts ..

“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.” T. S. Eliot


sometimes what burns deepest in us will find a way to surface ... my heart is a creative one ... my mind thinks of creating ... i have ignored it and tried to live a life that would appear as secure and stable ... it has not worked for me ... it has only left me feeling frustrated and caged ... some scary decisions are being made ... scary to me ... i believe that if you follow your heart ... if you answer the call within, you will find success ... unsure steps to a sure future ... wish us well and know that i will keep you posted ... we travel at some point this week to take steps in creating our future ... more info to follow ... thank you to those who continue to inspire and feed that desire ...

i have a secret.....

cow-ward ...

yeah, i am not much for sitting in the heat any more - i am a coward when it comes to sweating in the confines of a building with no air conditioning waiting for someone to decide if they need to spend their pocket change on my trinkets ...i am not sure what i feel about having 'done' the cattle barn flea market.. but I am pretty sure i am done ... we are scheduled to return to waco this coming weekend and bring a uhaul back to arlington after emptying out some storage buildings we have in waco ... i was excited about the opportunity to sell things in the cattle barn flea market and to be fair, i wasn't there saturday and my middle sister and her husband sold things for us ... they had a pretty good turnout ... rod and i went sunday and sales were ok, i bought more than i sold, which is always the case ... the buying there is awesome ... just couldn't bring myself to sell the good stuff as cheaply as some of the other dealers sell ... but, i am going to play out the next 2 weeks or so and see ... guess i have been in the business too long, but if i know i can get $15 on something by waiting for a specific show, why sell it now for $2 ... it was also way hotter than i expected and i forgot to bring a fan ... overall, i don't guess it was not that bad - i got rid of some things, i bought some cool stuff and... i now know that is not how i want to accomplish liquidating some of the things i have accumulated ...
so today we had a day off, sort of, from work - we didn't have to wear work clothes, though they still called us all day long and at the end of the day we have been working on stuff for our employer ... anyway, my middle sis drove us around ... we went to the montgomery street antique mall in ft worth - cool place - busy - but heavy on the 'antique antique' not very junk friendly - at least that i saw - lots of 50% off signs and the like - then we made our way back to arlington and my sister says there is a place she thinks we would like ... she winds us through an older area of arlington and we pull into an older strip center - not strip as in gypsy rose lee strip - but the old style shopping center of a strip of retail stores - this one was probably built in the 30s or so - just about 3 maybe 4 spaces all together - collected treasures was the name of the little shop and it is literally stuffed to the rafters - at least i think there were rafters, but i couldn't see them - the shop wizard - when i say wizard, stop in and you will see what i mean, this little lady is a wiz at everything - she paints, she upholsters, she creates, she decorates, she displays, she sells - her 'can do' attitude will charm you immediately - and i would say these things about her even if i didn't want to rent a space in her shop - i am submitting her photos of the things we do so she can decide if our styles will compliment one another - i didn't take my camera along or i would post pics, but you can see by looking at her website what a wiz she is at display - for now - i will leave you with pics of the cattle barn adventure - you really should make your way out there to shop soon - there is some awesome stuff there and it is all priced so reasonable -

no cows here - just us chickens ...

ft. worth cattle barns - barn #1. ft worth stockyards. it's a weekly flea market. if you want you can pay a monthly rate and leave your stuff there - many do. you have to move out during the stockyard show and during christmas time, from what we have been told. we set up there this morning. my middle sis, becky and her husband are running the space for us today, sat. and rod and i will be there on sunday. quite a few familiar faces. always, always a bargain hidden amongst the yard sale stuff. we brought just stuff to let go of, stuff to move out.. not trying for the nicest looking booth here... though there are some very nice booths ... i may strive for that once we get settled... who am i kidding, i know once i have the time to work the booth, i will decorate the booth... i must decorate the booth... i will post more pics tomorrow evening or monday ... but here are a few i snapped this morning, after unloading, to whet your appetite..

here we are ...

well we are now living in arlington, texas. we finally got our transfer to the dallas area. we got here on the 20th of june.
mostly, i am excited to finally be back among people i know and areas of texas that i am more familiar with. we have been working almost non-stop since we got here, but we were able to hit the flea market at the cattle barns in ft. worth yesterday.
we found a great little hull vase and a wonderful 1920s era tinted photo of crater lake. i think we will be keeping them. but, the exciting thing was - we ran into an old friend who sets up there who we used to set up next to at canton back in the 80s. she talked to us about selling at the cattle barns. so i think we are going to start selling there. i am stoked. we won't always be able to work there on sat. but my middle sis has said she would watch the place when we can't. you don't have to be there. you can leave your stuff there up until the stockyard show during jan/feb. and i think you have to move out right after christmas. but this should allow us the place to sell some of the stuff we have found and get our feet wet again.
oh, i also found a very nice piece of fabric with black background and tapestry design that looks like old needlepoint. $15 for the whole piece. i love it. it will make some incredible pillows or cover a chair - it's about 2 yards.